Introduction

Ok, so my road to becoming a mum has not been an easy one, and now that I have a healthy happy son, things have not become easier for me like I thought they would. Too many people go thru the bad things in life alone, never discussing with people around them how they are feeling or what they're going thru, its always an edited upbeat version as to not make people around them uncomfortable. So I have decided to share my journey with everyone to let those who are struggling know that they are not alone, and to try to get people to really open up and talk about how they're really feeling, good and bad.

Ive been thru happy times of seeing my child up on the ultrasound screen playing around and waving, to a completely traumatic time of seeing no movement on that screen and being told my baby had died. I looked at my son when he was born and instantly fell in love, but I have also recently looked at him and felt nothing but resentment. Ive been a happy loving mum, but now Ive been diagnosed as a mum with post-natal depression. I want to share my journey of becoming a mother, and my journey of being a mother with PND. I hope we can all learn to be open and discuss these things that are never easy to talk about.