The weather was horrible, which was only making me feel worse, it was pouring down with rain with crazy strong wind. Alburys teddy was sitting waiting for me to take it to her at the cemetery. I was so frustrated that the weather was like this, the day was already being ruined!
I went and picked up Logan from my sisters and asked to borrow an umbrella, no wind or rain was going to stop me from giving my daughter her birthday present! I drove to the cemetery, put Logan in my sling, let him hold Alburys teddy bear, and we walked to her.
I just cried, told her how much we love her and how much we wanted her here with us, and that I wanted her to have a happy birthday. Logan gave the teddy a kiss, and we gave it to her and walked back to the car.
When Mike got home from work and Logan was in bed for a nap, we sat down and watched her ultrasound video, she was just so amazing, and remembering how excited we were when we went and saw her for the first time was just wonderful and heartbreaking all at the same time.
That night we got her birthday cake out and sang happy birthday, Logan had his first ever taste of birthday cake, he was a massive fan. At 7pm we lit 3 candles, one for myself, one for Mike and one for Logan, in memory of our precious little girl. Her birthday card sits proudly with her dads.
I was so happy I was able to do everything I set out to do, I gave my little girl the birthday she deserved. Its not going to get easier as years go by, but I will continue to celebrate her birthday and show Albury that she will always be our little girl, and she will always be loved.
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